I wish it wasn't so hard at times to find the necessary day to day motivation. Ebb and flow, I suppose.
There seems to be a fine line for me between laziness and depression when it comes to be motivated. Maybe its also somewhat of a self-esteem or confidence issue. I don't know.
I was really hurt this week after making an effort, following something of a absence on my part, to reach out to somebody I care about. I wasn't so much rejected as left unacknowledged. Which I think felt worse. But then I considered the reaction possibly had nothing to do with me; something was going on in their life at the moment that led to the response I did receive. This theory didn't take away the sting but did leave me trying to convince myself that it really didn't matter because in the grand scheme of things, this person probably didn't realize how much it hurt me.
Self-delusion really is a safety preserver, isn't it?
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Follow up with that person.
ReplyDeleteDang, I wrote a fairly long response last night, and my computer ate it. The gist of it was that people often will not answer something, not because they're rejecting the author, but because they don't really have much new to say and don't want to waste bandwidth with a banal reply that is merely an acknowledgement of reception. Yes, of course it's polite to ACK, but then you want to avoid an endless cycle of ACKs. So I think it's very unlikely to be a real, personal rejection.But I agree with John's advice as a way to clear things up.
ReplyDeleteWas it me? LOL
ReplyDeletereading backwards, sure hope it wasn't me. I have pretty much slid off the face of the earth. No laptop has killed my internet use.
ReplyDeleteNow that I have finished being egocentric, I agree with John, reach out to the person again.
Huge cyber hug. Miss you lots,
B~