I posted last night but when I tried to edit to put a picture in the post is gone :( I may have deleted by accident.

It is our last full day here. 4 nights doesn't seem enough but unfortunately everybody (except me apparently) has lives and jobs to get back to. We will be leaving sometime tomorrow and heading home through Banff. While I am tempted to spend tomorrow night in Lake Louise, as I said, everybody but me has to get back to Calgary. I just found out that the Columbia Icefields glacier tours are fully accessible. Which really surprised me but apparently it is true. This opened up the possibility of stopping there tomorrow if we left earlier enough since it is on the way. But after thinking it over I realized that the Icefields are close enough to Calgary that a trip out there could be done in one day. Jasper, while it isn't really all that far from Calgary relatively speaking, isn't a day trip. At least not for me. And so we are going to spend the morning poking around Jasper and then just drive straight to Calgary. Although my common sense tells me if I was going to do the glacier now is the time before the crowds start. However I am getting enough of the staring at treatment here that I am not so sure I want to go become a spectacle on a glacier. Yes I am too sensitive but there are times I don't handle it well. Today is one of those days when I just would rather drop down a giant rabbit hole that go out as I am.

Anyways enough of the self-pity for now. My sister in law and nephew arrived yesterday to spend the final two nights of our trip with us which has been very nice. My cousin drove them and spent the night then went back and then they will come home with us. And here I was wondering what we would do with all the bedrooms we had. They have all been filled up nicely in fact. We went to the pool so my nephew could burn off some of his energy (he is 2 and a half...enough said). The outdoor pool is heated so is open all year round. It is gorgeous and fully accessible with a wheelchair ramp leading right from the change room into the pool. There is also an indoor pool although I haven't seen it yet. Anyways a very nice pool attendant came over and told me they had a chair that I could use if I wanted t o go in the pool. This got my nephew all excited because he thought I could go swimming with him. It was pretty upsetting for me when I told him I couldn't and he kept repeating "please come." I would have loved to just to make him happy. Unfortunately there was no way to accommodate the ventilator. In the past I have gone in a pool during physical therapy sessions but of course not thinking that there would be a pool here I could conceivably use quite easily, we didn't think of it. I say that somewhat wistfully because I don't know that even if it had been possible it I would have been comfortable going in the water. This is the first time my nephew (this particular one) has specifically asked me to do something with him that I haven't been able to. In the end it was no big deal to him because another lodge employee presented him with a toy boat and he promptly forgot all about me once he got it in his hands. But it bothered me. And still is bothering me.

We haven't left the lodge properly much to explore as we thought we might. Besides the fact that it is so nice here, I have been very tired and not much up to exploring. The road trip took a lot out of me and so I have been taking it easy for the most part. I thought maybe that would ruin the trip somewhat as we came to see Jasper National Park and are really only seeing one very small slice of it. But everybody else seems content to just hang around here. I admit that finding out that things had gone downhill so quickly for Brent has taken away something from this trip. I know it does no good to think this way because there is absolutely no connection between the two things but I was almost feeling like going on a trip like this seems so pointless in the big picture of things. Having my nephew here who is just a few months older than Brent also had me thinking about a number of things. My sister in law is currently fighting her own very difficult battle with cancer and so there are many different emotions. I was so happy she was able to come to Jasper for at least part of the stay.

Some pictures maybe later today. Nobody has taken them off their cameras for me yet.