School continues to consume all my time and has me on the verge of a meltdown most days it seems. 2 more weeks of classes then the final. I joked to a friend today in an email that next semester I won't be taking anything related to programming but instead will enroll in something like the history of furniture--which is a course that is offered. He cautioned me that the mixing of furniture eras might be intense. So I am now unsure what to enroll in. I really must find myself a program to register in as academic drifting, as appealing as it seemed at the beginning of this semester, is clearly not working for me. Since I enjoyed my art history course in the spring so much--and more importantly it didn't break my brain as my attempts to learn C++ is doing--I think I will just go back to that for the winter term.

I have had a difficult time getting the accomodations I require. Something that has me confused as in the spring it was no issue. I suspect the Accessibility Office is understaffed and therefore I might not be the only one falling through the cracks. But the lack of support has made this semester much more difficult than it needed to be. Finally after realizing I was either going to have to withdraw the course or risk a very real chance of getting an F, I decided to go see the professor. Which was not an easy decision as I have found him somewhat difficult to deal with. I had sent him a few emails earlier in the semester explaining that I was falling behind and wondering if there was a way to salvage the course. He replied to them all, but somewhat in a somewhat bizarre fashion, managed to always ignore my concerns and reply about things that had nothing to do with what I had just written.

But last week, I finally decided to go and see him in his office and appeal to him for some brief extensions. And while I admit that I am a terrible slacker and in the past have possibly abused the goodwill of extensions granted to me, in this case I honestly required them. I have been working my butt off in the course. And I have never gotten such bad greats for such a big effort lol. My meeting with the prog turned out to be a good thing, although it nearly turned into a disaster when I broke down and started crying. I think he was so appalled that he would have agreed to any accomodations or extensions just to get me to stop. Or to get me out of his office :/ We did come to an agreement, although he did try to encourage me to withdraw and try the course again next semester, but told me I could continue to come to class and get help from him. I haven't yet decided what to do. But for now I am going to continue. He is a good guy and I have to take back some cursing I did about him when he didn't seem to be understanding my emails. I think I just had to go make the connection in person. I should have done it earlier in the semester. I may not be sitting at 52% if I had. Oh well.